I guess I miss the Comfort. The comfort of knowing that someone is out there for me. Someone who genuinely cared. Someone who I could talk to about my true feelings. I'm tired of having fake friends, I'm tired of giving someone what they want from me, I'm tired of being the good guy, I'm tired of making my parents worry. I'm tired of hearing dishonest words, Im tired of caring about friends who i really care about, who i worry about, I'm tired of not doing something that is good for me. I miss the innocence that we all had Once. I miss when I genuienly had fun. I miss creating. I miss destroying. I wanted to be sad, now that im sad I miss feeling okay. I Us3d to have the thoughts of blowing out my fucking brains, but theres nothing i could ever do about the pain that is constantly in my chest. Where were they when i was drowning in pain, every single time i lose i start to feel the pain. I cant seem to fade away this pain thats in my brain. Fkkk mannnnnn i don't feel the fucking same. If only someone could see the distorted memories, pain in the eyes that are constantly trying to be free, but i cant seem to let free. I want to feel alive. I don't even know what is the truth and what's a lie anymore! I miss the presence of love and comfort. I dont know what to talk about anymore. How did i get here ??? Im constantly searching for the positive side to everything... im still searching. Theres noone there to hold when the pain begins. I hate having to pretend to be the perfect me. I hate giving out love for free. I guess im at a loss of words. Theres so much things that create these feelings, oh its so sad words cant express this utter feelings.
god damn it,i didnt want to believe it was true, so the women have really started loving the trees, no wonder why the men cut down and burn down so much trees leading to deforestation, hmm it is just starting to make sense. still kinda hard to believe.but if the women keep their focus on the envronmental issues, and not the astonishingly increasing numbers of men developing mental issuses which is the root that leads to all the issues that men face, men will be womenless because the women are busy loving the trees. That leads to very suffering of men not getting to get a grip of the soil with thier roots. but eventually they will adapt to not having soil. That is going to lead to the men to find pleasure in other interests such as working towards the artificial age, they will start making more robots, and more robots, and to make more robots you need more factories. More factories lead to all sorts of unimaginable pollution. Then the pollution will be of too much harm for the planet's ozone layer , leading to 50% of the ozone layer protection to dissapear. Then global warming will be irriversible. The temperature causes the evaporation procecces to speed up which will lead to frequent and heavy rainfalls. The too much rain will make more water in the sea, and more water in the sea leads to speedier evaporation, then to even more rainfalls. The soil will become completely not sustainable for tree lives leading to extraordinary landslides and maybe even the hills collapsing, more and more trees will die and if there are less trees in the world , there will be less oxygen. we will all suffocate to sudden death. i must show my deep love and affection for trees, the real reason we started to cut down trees and cause massif deforestation is to make paper and pencils and desks and chairs for us to sit and write, because of the papers, the spread of information and communication was very useful in the paper age. Now because of the papers so many information has been preserved and transported all over the world leading to the industrialization the human civilization, without the papers nikolai tesla wouldnt have been able to drop down notes therefore leading to no electricity born, but because we started to cut down the trees nikolai tesla had invented electricity, without papers you wouldnt be able to have access to this much information which has led to you being qualified as a scholar, if we didnot start to cut down trees i would have probably been hunting for some food and you probabaly gather some fruits and vegetables